A Letter To My First Born, the One Who Made Me Mama

To You My Sweet Boy,

We are just a few short weeks away from welcoming your baby sister into the world and into our little family. My heart nearly bursts with joy thinking of the future where I will get to watch you two grow as siblings and into friends.

While my heart is so full of love for both you and your little sister, I can’t help but feel a tiny bit of sadness. It has hit me hard recently that in only a few months you will no longer be my only child and it breaks my heart a bit to watch you grow up so quickly.

When I first found out I was pregnant with you I had no idea of the wonder and adventure that awaited me as your mama.

Our Journey Together

In the last two years, you have taught me more about myself than I could’ve ever expected. You, little love, made me mama and showed me strengths in myself I didn’t know existed!

You have taught me the true definition of unconditional love and know that for you I have felt a love so deep sometimes I fear my heart might actually burst. For two years it has been you and I tackling this journey of motherhood, working through all the ups and downs, and trials and triumphs.

Through you, I have seen the innocence and joy of the world again. Together we have overcome the tough times of sleepless nights, gross bodily fluids, food aversions, and nursing strikes.

We have celebrated your triumphs of learning new things and we’ve worked together as you navigate this big world. I have held you while you slept and prayed to the heavens for time to slow down. It seems like just last week I was in the hospital, a nervous, naive first-time mom about to welcome you into our lives and now I am planning your second birthday party and listening to you tell me about your daily adventures.

It doesn’t seem so long ago that I was holding you close, nursing you to sleep, and snuggling your tiny newborn head. Right before my very eyes you have grown into the sweetest, kindest, funniest little boy I could have ever wished for.

Each day you fill our home with joy and laughter and your dad and I could never imagine a life without you. I know sometimes it can already seem like all the talk is about your baby sister, but please know you will forever be my first. You will forever be the one that brought me into this wonderful world of motherhood. No matter how old you get, know I will always love you and be there for you. I will always help you through the tough times and celebrate with you the wonderful times.

Please be patient with me

Please be patient with me as I learn to be a mom of two. These next few months might be messy but know I am trying my best and every day I am still learning.

I know it will be scary and different when Mama and Daddy come home with a wrinkly new family member, but please know we will be here to help you adjust to our changing family.

Please know that just because I am nursing or holding baby sister doesn’t mean my lap isn’t big enough to snuggle you too! You are going to be such a wonderful big brother and I know she will be so blessed to have you! Always remember little love, no matter how big you get, you will always be my baby and I will love you forever!